adam
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Post by adam on Dec 20, 2013 2:03:42 GMT
i have a massive love for both of these guys. jon brion always cheers me up with his authenticity. rest in peace, elliot.
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Post by luckymud on Dec 20, 2013 7:40:25 GMT
Adam, I have been listening to an Elliott Smith album all year and sobbing inconsolably throughout  "XO" and it is in my disc player now. it's like a terrible drug, either the music or the sadness. heaving, grieving. I want to tattoo "XO" on the inside of one of my fingers. |
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adam
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Post by adam on Dec 21, 2013 3:12:19 GMT
it's an easy album to do that with. waltz #2, bottle up and explode, i didn't understand. depression hit him hard when he started XO, and that feeling is there. i spent months with elliot smith tucking me under the blanket of depression, and then jon brion arrived and would insist that i get out of bed, so i like the two of them playing here together. a complete picture, both masks, the human condition.
i still have only the tattoos you met me with. super sad. all of that money spent on cigarettes and drugs.
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Post by luckymud on Dec 21, 2013 13:57:47 GMT
But...two of your tattoos you got with me there so you didn't have them when we met...
I did tell you to quit the damn cigarettes ugh. you know what made it easy for me to quit?
1. watching my Grammy's lungs fail. She wasn't a smoker but the cancer metastasized in her lungs till they no longer functioned.
2. my health insurance dictates that I don't.
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adam
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Post by adam on Dec 21, 2013 18:01:51 GMT
that's true- i guess at some point i started considering the hexagram and the star to be separate things. what i mean is, the last anyone has stuck me with inky needles was to have what's on my back touched up/altered some.
i remember. i've quit so many times. sometimes for months, and sometimes it's just a matter of weeks or days. then i will be in a social setting, and everyone around me will be smoking, and i will think,"i can have just one, i won't buy anymore, it will be okay" and it is never, ever okay. stress at work/slave situation, living with four smokers and having all of the friends in my life smoke, and before i know it i'm among their number again. the last time i started was november, 2011, and... it was bad (managing to go through a pack+ a day despite no income), and lasted until october of this year. when i was 19 i promised myself i would never smoke again after my 26th birthday, and i broke that promise because: comfort, routine, addiction, anxiety, negative self-worth/value. bleh.
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